This morning I listened to a piece on YouTube that literally shook me to my core. Steve Nobel is someone I have subscribed to in the last year. I usually use his guided meditations and affirmations to get through my day. But today, I listened to one of his lessons that he calls Ascension News. And today's topic that I chose was "Moving Beyond the Familiarity Zone." It was a random pick, but obviously one that I was meant to hear today!
I have felt stuck in the last couple of weeks. With work, my health, and my overall well-being. Grief has taken its toll. After the one year mark of losing My Boy, I had a sense of relief to have made it through. I gained a little more energy, started some education for a new healing modality, and was able to get through just about every day. Then, all of a sudden, lack of motivation kicked in. Every day tasks are getting overwhelming again, and as far as my career... well, I've started to question my purpose. Is this really what I should be doing? Maybe I should just go get a J O B (frankly, my worst nightmare!)
Wow! After listening to Steve's piece, I now know I am stuck in Resistance. Resistance in metaphysical terms is simply the inability to accept what is. Yes, I accept the passing of My Boy. What I am resisting is allowing MYSELF to live. In my case, I have become apathetic. I don't have motivation to get myself to exercise, to cook, to sit down and finish my Biofeedback certification, to open another office. It is all overwhelming, and it has become easier to just let it go.
I know that's not what My Boy would want, and it's not what I want. I am a Starseed, a Lightworker, a Healer. In order to feel joy again, and live my true purpose, I have to dig in deep and keep going. As long as I stay in Resistance, my own ascension process is being compromised.
I am worthy of all the joys this human experience has to offer. So today, I make a promise to myself. I promise to be patient with myself while I push forward and live my life, my purpose. I promise to live in balance by honoring the days I need to focus inward, and recognizing my effort on the days I may have to push myself to do the things that are overwhelming. And I have faith that My Boy is by my side.
For you, out there, this means I will be opening another office soon. (A lot of you have been asking!) And I would love to hear in the comments if and how Resistance plays a part in your life. We all face it now and then! Love and Light